So often people tend to hang their “better days” on some condition that they want for themselves. Perhaps it is when they get married or a promotion. Or once they quit smoking or such. They often value the people who are close to them as more valuable than the “villains” in their life. You can really hear it when they talk about finding their soul mate.
When I consider my life, I sure did have my fair share of villains in my life. But, after considering their effect on my life, I feel that my “villains” are a much closer soul mate to me than some of my closer friends. Why would that be? I had one particular villain, who as my boss, who took me to the edge of life. After spending every work day with him for 10 years, I was spending years on a couch, talking to my shrink. I was grinding my teeth in my sleep. My body was under severe protest. I had digestive tract problems and ulcers were on their way in too. I was losing my health and there was not any notion of that changing any time soon. That “villian” was three basic things. He was a real asshole. Malicious, evil and my own personal angel. That’s right. He was probably one of the most influential people in my life. I had despised him. Hated him. Blamed him. And in return, he cracked me open. He was the one who changed my life in a most complete way. He started me on my spiritual journey. He saved my life.
My close friends never challenged me like he did. They did not torment my Soul to find healthier grounds in such a deep and fundamental way. Don’t get me wrong here, My close friends are one of the best things in my life. I am not discounting them in any way. I just learned to value the gifts that were hiding in my struggles. I came here to learn big lessons. And to do that, I needed a teacher that was willing to be seen as a total prick and still keep showing up for the job. As I look back, I thank that villain in my life for being such a diligent prick. An outstanding prick. He cracked me open so deeply in my psyche, that I found out so much about myself, that I never would have known otherwise. I now thank him from the bottom of my heart. He awakened my power. He showed me my deepest most struggles. He set me free.
As humanity struggles to find itself, the people here who are bent at keeping us down, provide us with such a gift. A chance to look deeply within ourself. To find every place where we have not accepted our self or some aspect of humanity itself. Peace comes from acceptance. There will be peace on earth when we integrate both the light and the shadow for what they really are. Nothing other than Love expressing itself.
Quote: “Both Light and Shadow are the dance of Love.” and “When the profane becomes sacred… again” both from Rumi
Love your villains, see past their mask.
Love and Light
Les
New Human Living